Sunday, October 08, 2006
today the whole day i stayed at home facing my lappy.. watching shows and play games. and didnt go out except for just now i went to buy my food supplies and fruits.. and no more..
kinda boring life huh??? hahah
and the worst thing was that i have so many mosquito bites on my hand... argh~ stupid mosquitoes! bleah~
hehe, more to write about yesterday...
as i previously mentioned that i went to E.A.I for audition yesterday.. then when i went there.. the place doesnt seems like the place cos its very inside.. and its in a industrial building.. then in the end its the right place.. where first i tot its the wrong one.
during the interview... there were 2 other gals, who were both just grad from nus a yr ago.. and their objective to go there was to take lesson, but for me.. i dont know cos the chied producer didnt tell me anything.. lol. but i onli roughly wats the biz abt...
then after the explanation part by felix, then he asked us to get ready to prepare a song for audition and sing to the people outside .. where there are around 10 people.
and this company is more towards having live performance and more towards performer side.. but in future if u are realli good u might cut an album...
then in the end after the audition and 'verdict'...
my verdict was...
i chose the wrong song
i dont hve the live performance style
vocal quality not to standard
voice sounded so like choir
(where i agree..and also if i wanna to be a performer, i first need to step out of this choir voicey)
and so he suggested to me and all of us to go from the basic.. and after many questions and explanation, we all three signed up to take up the course training
where it will last for 4 mths and it will held in every sat 12 to 2 pm.. which also means.. i will not be able to attend choir prac for those 4 mths...
i know to many people.. will say... you should put ur ministry first...
ya...BUT!!! i would like to ask... if i put ministry first, of course more opportunites will be given such as previously sis bel asked me if i wan to serve in children church..
but.. ultimately.. i knoe and i noe that my market place is not in church.. but is in the world..
and it has been a long long time that i always want to have a lesson in improving my vocals where i knoe where my standard is.. and now i'm given a chance.. if i dont even try how would i know the results???
i know to many people, they will say.. how do u noe which is the right path????
as you can see, i m sort of protecting myself huh?? i realized that kinda long time ago, whenever i think thru many things
i know i am stubborn, u think i dont want to go to the right path huh?!?! i even prayed about it, i know whenever i made a decision there will be alot people saying... have u thought about it.. etc.. making me crazy and mad at times.. that in the end i didnt do anything out of it
but this time round is different! i realli started it out alrdy.. i dunno its right or wrong but i really pray for GREAT FAVOR from GOD in that place. even if anything, i want to leave that place with something of God!
and after signing the agreement.. i walked to the bus stop.. and i think about it.. previously.. i always thinking about going to UAN as.. they will provide me extra source of money.. whereby u also need to fork out a sum of money to join.. but this one doesnt!!
i am so desperate over money, i have ardy plan to give a BIG offering to God and His house.. i even tot of in my extra income, i wan to give 50% of it to offering. i really wanna cry out.. I NEED MONEY! i also wanna get into UAN..but they yet to call me.......but i will ask for it...
thinking about it... i feel i just cant stop giving!! argH~~~~
hahah.. i am a very complicated person huh??!?!?!
just by seeing the way i write...
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